PTSD and More Healing Light

Little by little more healing light is coming into my and my husband’s lives.

We both have PTSD issues when dealing with finances.

For both of us, the person who taught us about handling money was our abusive fathers.

Abusive in different ways, but the absolute fear and terror from those past experiences leaked over into financial matters.

As we have been inspired to clear up other issues, aided greatly by our daily study of ”A Course in Miracles” (we are beginning our second time through), lesser issues have come to the fore.

We have not been able to choose the timing, intensity or the order of importance.

We only know that certain things seem to come up, and then, finally, to be resolved.

I am so grateful for any and all help in these long-term, low-grade, terrifying issues.

For instance, we are both able to keep asking questions, now, until we understand how to process various financial information, simple stuff that our grown kids have been doing for years and years.

We know how to keep breathing through the panic attacks that hit us, and to keep going, or at least to come back, until we can interpret and complete various financial forms.

We are discovering that our PTSD has nothing whatsoever to do with the things we are good at.

But it has hampered us in various other ways, which seem so obviously simple to other people.

We could never explain it before, even to ourselves.

Now that things are settling down to a form they can be dealt with, we are both very grateful to be able to see the problems be defined, and then solved.

This happens repeatedly on some issues until we get them under control, and quickly with other issues.

Even to feel it happening at all has been such a gift.

Knowing that it is continuing in such a gentle and pervasive way is truly amazing.

© 2016 Kathryn Hardage

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