I no longer fear abandonment because I know I can depend on myself.
In my early years, my touchstone was emotional abandonment and physical abuse.
While I was fearful of life’s experiences, I felt abandoned.
It was a negative feedback loop.
When I realized that my life had gone wrong, I began to take steps to right it.
I had to turn it upside down.
I found new skills, techniques, and self-respect.
I triumphed over a lot of internal bad habits.
Now, I know that I would never abandon myself.
I know how to recognize myself, who I really am, not the person with the bad training.
I had skills which I was taught very exactly and specifically.
I also had emotional habits which surrounded me.
Now, I was learning on my own.
Out of necessity, I had to develop new abilities myself.
It has used whole aspects of myself which I never knew existed.
They have had to learn how to wire and fire together in new ways.
I am a new person, and I really like being her.
© 2017 Kathryn Hardage
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